I haven't been well today, the stress of coming up with the prepay money is taking its toll. My heart is off, my breathing is shallow, my head is spinning, and I barely have energy to speak. Robert Frost keeps whispering in my ear about two roads and taking the one less taken. I've been going back and forth about whether I should give up, go to the doctor, get back on a ton of medications, and get some mundane job that I hate but am able to work in zombie mode.
However, there's that other half of me. That half that says "keep trying! Don't quit now! You've worked so hard for this!" I rather like that half of me, usually, some days its annoying. Some days I want to tell it to shut up and just look at the mess we're in!
Today isn't one of those days. I'm strongly considering going out on a limb, throwing caution to the wind, and taking my shot. I don't know how it will go, but I honestly believe that if I look back on this year and see that I didn't try, I'll hate myself for the rest of living days.
Sitting at a crossroads, ready to pounce the moment an opportunity arrives.
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