Weekends Hurt

Sorry, I haven't had much to say lately. Not much has changed. I'm working full time now but the money is slow in coming. I finally convinced my stbx to feed his daughter and buy her a helmet for tornado safety. I simply can't buy food and save and well, I don't eat much....


Weekends are painful for me, two reasons: One, I don't really have anyone to talk to because everyone is doing their own thing. I get very lonely. Two, he likes to berate me on the weekends. It seems irresponsible to waste gas money that I don't have, driving around, but that is my only escape from being yelled at and put down and made to feel like worthless trash on the side of the street. 


I'm so sad. Friday evenings through Monday mornings hurt so much! 


I've cleaned everything in sight, I've packed all of the moving boxes, reorganized the closet to hold the boxes, and worked 5 word find puzzles! Will this weekend ever end?!?