I feel great! spiritually

Now if only my body would catch up. I don't feel well. My head is spinning and my chest is tight. I need to eat but I don't feel like eating. I'm still holding onto my happiness but there were quite a few stresses in my weekend that left me feeling.....blah! 


The stbx was trying to throw his weight around and make us miserable but neither of us really care about pleasing him anymore. Multiple times I told him to pipe down and stop being a jerk. Still, the inner stress is building and its starting to affect my health in a very negative way. 


I'm beginning something today, something that should relieve tons of stress. I'm excited, and full of anticipation as I step in and learn a new skill. I'm a little anxious, I always am with the echoes of doctors' warnings playing in my head like a broken record, but, I can't just let the stress take me down. I have to fight! Fight I will! 


I only pray I can get over feeling icky & have enough spunk left in me to take this leap!