Today's The Day!

The day to do what? you might ask...Well, I don't know. I awoke with the words  "today's the day" in my head and now its seeping into my heart. I don't know what today is except that its a peaceful day. My mind is free of worries at the moment and I'm engulfed in the millions of snapshots I've taken over the course of six years and feeling that tiny spark of creativity begin to grow again. 


I'm almost moved to tears, not sad tears, not happy tears, those tears that come when least expected and seem to hold the power to cleanse away all the bad in life. Today, I awoke renewed. I'm learning to accept that my marriage is over emotionally, we're just waiting on the legalities. The father of my child isn't interested in being the daddy he never was. He's content with the way things are, only he wants more freedom. My daughter, who's always been so independent, is suddenly wanting every moment of my attention and for now, I'm not going to deny her. She's hurting but she's happy, it's bitter sweet. 


She's excited to be living away from all the yelling. She's excited to move away from the highway and noise of the sirens. She knows that she'll see her friends more often and that they will no longer be afraid to visit. I think  she understands (to an extent) that things are going to be tough on us for a while, but she's always been a very mature and understanding girl. I have no doubt that we'll be just fine, no matter where we are. 


The worry of where to go has been replaced with the drive to get there. I know where I want to be and I know that I want to pay ahead. I'm just not entirely sure how to make it happen in 7 months, but, I can try and try I will. 


Today's the day, I'm not sure what this day holds, but I greet it with anticipation and enthusiasm! 


P.S If you enjoy looking at images of nature, you'll find the links to my albums on this site. Just click on the images to your right and they'll take you right to them. Each view helps! Thanks in advance ~