Today's not been an easy day for me. Bunny stayed at her friend's house all day and David was in more than out and playing the part of "kind, caring husband" when in his heart all he wants is I and his child to get lost.
HURTS!!! I tell ya, it just hurts.
I'm having a tough time dealing with it and wondering how long I can stand to live here knowing he doesn't want us. Hopefully long enough to save some money back.
I hear things like "can I help you with that?" and "I cooked us something to eat" - Us?!?! My mind keeps replaying "I no longer want to be married, I was going to wait until after the new year to break the news, and from this day forward we will be roommates instead of husband and wife."
~Sigh~
Today was just really hard to stay positive. On the plus side, he fixed my headlight and gave me cash to buy his mother's present. Bunny, the dog, and I are heading that way tomorrow~
Please God, just give me strength to hold it all together & find some Christmas joy along the way...
Update: My daughter is now complaining of a sore throat and mom n law called to tell us her mother is in the hospital and it doesn't look hopeful. Looks like our trip is off or postponed. We'll have to see what later this morning holds.
Please pray for my daughter to feel better by morning & that my husband's family would be comforted during this difficult time.
Sure reminds me of my mom passing on Christmas Eve....
So to recap:
husband wants a divorce
i'm out of work for the next 2wks
my child is sick
and my husband's great granny is possibly dying
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